Tuesday 28 May 2013

Life is Funny Like That

A few months ago I got pulled over for the first time and got my first ever speeding ticket.  On my way to the destination that morning, someone was driving absolutely erratically; weaving in and out of traffic, cutting people off, speeding and riding asses.  At the same time someone else was driving towards me on the wrong side of the road; if I were a mere few seconds later the person would have driven into me.  I was shaken up, I thought to myself, where are the police when you need them?  Sure enough, down that road, coming down a hill, I got waved down by a pesky copper.   I got busted going 20-something over the speed limit.  I have since driven that same route, a few times with another passenger, and there is not a single speed limit sign to show that the speed limit drops from 60 to 50.  I was clocked coming down a hill.  I was upset at this $109 (some odd dollars) speeding ticket.  There are so many horribly insensitive aggressive drivers on the road.  My ticket was uncalled for.  I am not saying I am above the law, but I am not a threat to society.  These laws were made to aid the public, not make life harder on them.  I took this particular day to heart because I was already feeling beat up and let down by life and society.  The fine, was the icing on the shitty cake. 

I ended up fighting the ticket.  It caused extra stress but I am happy I did it.  I  got my fine reduced and no demerit points were added to my insurance.  I have so many reasons as to why I do not deserve that ticket.  It got me questioning the system even more, this ever so failing system that we keep protecting.  A pig sitting at the bottom of a hill is not protecting society from real criminals, what those “officers” are doing is raising simple people’s insurance rates.  They are burdening our court system with meaningless counsels.  You know, after 12 years of driving and never having a ticket or causing an accident, my insurance rates could have gone up for not holding onto the breaks while gravity (not the gas pedal) took me down a hill.  It is not as if my insurance will ever go down for good behaviour, so why should it go up for one slip up?  I was not having it.  I deem this unacceptable.  I encourage everyone to fight their useless tickets on the grounds of entrapment and capitalism.

I could go on but this was 2 months ago and I am over it.

It was a long and cold winter, the longest and coldest ever.  A year ago I was travelling and conquering; during the past winter I felt like I slipped back into the dark ages.  Applying to jobs and getting nothing.   Work slowing down; feeling helpless to the matter.  Dreaming so big and feeling hopeless by reality checks .  However, my relationships grew stronger.  My relationship with my parents is better than it has ever been.  My boyfriend is the sweetest man on earth.  My friendships deepening with love and gratitude.  I finally found a school that peeked my interest. 

The week of my 29th birthday, everything changed.  I fought that speeding ticket and won.  I had a job interview, that I did not get, but that made me feel good about myself.  I went to the Institute of Holistic Nutrition and acted as student for the day.  I invited a few friends over to celebrate my birthday, with no expectations and not much thought into it, and it was the best birthday of my entire life to date.  Everyone made me feel so special and loved; it warms my heart like nothing else.

Since then I enrolled in said school.  I am now officially heading back to school full time in September.
I got asked to fill in as Head of Wardrobe at the theatre I had been trying to find work with (obtaining a short contract 2 years ago) for the past 4 years.  They offered me a full time position as Production Assistant.  My life has done a complete flip turn upside down from how dreary I felt during those winter months.  To have this incredibly uplifting job in this magical little town is all I ever wanted.  It’s funny how life works, as soon as I had given up and decided to take another course in life, it was finally handed to me.   It has been tough staying true to myself and my values, but it has finally paid off.  I am reaping that which I have sewn over the years and it is better than imagined.  I feel respected and appreciated in the work that I am doing and the study that I will throw myself into come fall. 


Life is Grand.  In the last two days I have learned some major carpentry skills and I cannot wait to share all the wonderful little creations that me and the team of wonderful and creative human beings are conjuring up all in the name of magic and fantasy.


Friday 17 May 2013

I Gotta Get Out Of This Place


Waiting for my ride back to the beautiful lake side town where I will be residing for 4 months with only a bicycle and my walking feet as my form of transportation.  I have been there for 2 weeks already and I gotta say, I have trouble adjusting into the city life very quickly.  I am done with the city.  I have had enough of the city.  I have a lot to say on this topic...